Catastrophe of teenage living and growth

It seemed as if the world had just ended and began in a platter of unseemly servile misery.In as much as I tried to act cool, the thought of not getting the well-deserved attention from the ones I loved most hurt each second I realize I was still breathing.

The veins on my dorsal could easily be seen from afar because I had starved the entire week, I had eaten a slice of cheese Quesadilla the devastating night of my graduation afterwards locking myself up in my room for three days with my cell phone switched off.

It was a cloudy Sunday morning soothing the rainy season,I clung harder to my bed Conspicuous of the fact that I was home alone.However,since no one cared about my presence and disappearance from the house, no one cared about how I was faring, the perfect excuse for this was work,`pursuing ones passion.

I decided to take a walk in order to get some fresh breeze to touch my oozy face, I didn realize when I halted at the garden and sat beside a squared pottery,I barely noticed when Gina made it to the garden.

`Louisa,What are you not telling me? Gina asked as I was trying to catch a butterfly behind the flower vase in the garden close to where I had been sitting for almost an hour amidst tears and heavy thoughts as my heart pondered , I couldn stop retrospecting on what had happened on my graduation day,

`I am okay was all I mumbled trying hard not to let her notice the vividness in my voice.

`I have been calling your line for three days, I texted a few times,don you read your emails anymore? Gina asked.

I had to blink hard just to prevent the teardrop from revealing itself, I sorely replied,`Bestie,you know the graduation ceremony had a lot on me,I decided to go offline for a few days so I could have enough rest in order to avoid falling sick.

Gina wasn satisfied with my answer,she knew I wouldn take such a rash decision without reaching out to her first.She kept trying hard to find out if I was troubled or I was just avoiding her and the rest of the world. Gina was aware of my situation at home and what I was going through living with my Mother and sister,she often pitied me.

It then crossed my mind that I have been a mischievous friend who didn trust my best friend well enough to tell her about my relationship with Sam. Despite the fact that Gina always told me everything about her,I was the direct opposite, I was full of doubt that if I had told her about my relationship,Gina wouldn forgive me for betraying her and the promise we made to each other. I could recall when we were on holidays away from starting our senior year in college,Gina and I had made a promise to each other never to get involved with any man until we were done with studies at Prestige Schools.

This very incident wouldn sit well with our friendship if I told her about my relationship with Sam now ,knowing Gina too well,she would easily detect why I have been down,my ailing body could no longer take all the pressure and emotional ailment from her questioning. I struggled to divert her attention from all that was going on but she wouldn tune in.

”Its about Sam,your Aunts Fiancé ”, my lips began trembling as i spoke.

”And what about him ”,Gina asked.

He lied to me,he deceived me,he made me believe in love, I was blindly dart for having given my body to such a skunk person. Ill never forgive him ”, my faint voice faded as I began crying.

”What in Gods name are you talking about? ” Gina asked as she stepped back trying to get her poise in order not to jerk off.

A slight headache started immediately from shock of hearing something she didn expect from her only best friend,whom she hid nothing from.

Gina ,hear me out! I know this is about the promise we made to each other but we
e done now, Senior year is over plus we
e never going back to Prestige schools, I said crankily.

How long have this been?

…Why didn you tell me? Gina asked amidst heavy breath.

Im never going to forgive you for this,you have betrayed my trust!

Gina wait! Please wait! I have an explanation to this,please don leave me. I said as I hurriedly stood on my feet stretching my hands to get hers but she quickly stepped back again.

Gina walked away after her last statement,she didn look back as I expected her to. I was broken, not because of my treachery but the fact that she didn wait to hear me out.Besides,what would have been the much needed explanation I wanted to give?.

That Sam took my virginity?

..That I foolishly fell in love with Sam?

My mum and Venita returned home in the middle of my twist and turns,I actually ran into them at the entrance door,I instantly regret not using the back door as usual.

Mrs Fiona started questioning my actions.

”Why didn I see you in church?

..Why has your room door been locked?

..And what happened to your cell phone,huh?

Why did you silence it? ” Mum asked.

I immediately observed a lie in all she asked,she never called for any reason because my phone was totally off and not silenced. My presence wasn needed anyways,except to run errands.

Venita did not wait to hear any of our rants, if she were listening,she wouldn defend me anyway,hence, her presence wasn needed.

”Mum! I was only recovering from my convocation stress and that was the best way to deal with it. ” I said in a haste

I tried to explain further but only got stuck up and I ended up with;

..Im sorry mum. After I made this statement,I hurriedly left for my room.

I could clearly hear a huge sigh from my mum as I landed my body on my bed, I didn realize when I started crying uncontrollably.

I was indeed alone and pained.